A positive side to having weeks of bed rest (three herniated discs and an annular tear) is that I have a tremendous amount of time to read. In just this past week I have explored spirituality, fiction, non-fiction, and a plethora of magazines. Today I cracked open a book loaned to me about autism. Typically [...]
Posts Tagged ‘grief’
a read
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged autism, autism reads, disability, family, grief, loss, love, special needs on May, 12, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
Remembering
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged animal, companion, death of dog, death of pet, dogs, grief, loss, love, sadness on May, 9, 2012 | 1 Comment »
Words cannot explain to a non-dog person what happens to a dog-mommy’s heart when that sweet face of fur sighs into their last breath. The emptiness that fills the heart. The loneliness that comes. The days that follow when a dog dies can also be difficult to explain. The heart aches at the sight of [...]
The process begins (again)
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged back injury, emotion, grief, injury, loss, pain, surrender, understanding, yoga on May, 3, 2012 | 3 Comments »
The reality of the present is settling in. In all my attempts to create something magnificent in the way of my future, my yoga business, and my family, the situation with my back is telling me otherwise. It was just last week that I was examining the events in my life and feeling completely part [...]
To embrace this
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged adult agencies, adult services, developmental disabilities, disability, grief, worry on April, 23, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
Who would have ever thought that I would be in the mental space that I am in when it comes to the girl turning 18. For months, if not years, I have anticipated this time when she will prepare to exit the traditional school setting of public education and enter into the world of adult [...]
Interpreting fear
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged adult with disability, changes, decisions, disabilities, dreams, grief, interpreting dreams, life, loss on April, 14, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
Listen to what you know instead of what you fear. -Richard Bach The nightly dreams of my recent weeks have been consistent with my awake hours; both are filled with some sort of turmoil. In my awake state there is worry about my girl–I find myself entering into another cycle of grief as I [...]
It comes in waves
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged autism, developmental disabilities, developmental disability, grief, loss, motherhood, pain, sadness, special needs on April, 9, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
It comes and goes in waves. In all honestly there are times that I have my head buried in the sand. I can talk the needed talk and make like I have it all under control. I can appear that I am dealing with the uncertainty of the future with my girl in the healthiest [...]
Tizzy train
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged anger, autism, children, childrens hospital, developmental disabilities, disability, genetics, grief, life, motherhood, sadness on February, 7, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
I rarely get myself into a tizzy over things, especially around my girl. Really, the tizzy train moved on years ago, yet it seems a visit to the children’s hospital can make the tizzy train come roaring back on the tracks toward this station. The discussion of genetic testing sparked the emotions that often lay [...]
Blinded
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged grief, heartache, joy, labyrinth, Mom, motherhood, pain, son, sons on October, 17, 2011 | 1 Comment »
He entered his labyrinth with a belief that he was indestructible and righteous. He believed that he was invincible and that the world owed him everything. I watched his self-destruction, over and over, as he found himself stuck within the walls of his own limiting beliefs and behaviors. It mattered not what I thought of him, but [...]
Remembering Brooklyn
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged death, dogs, grief on May, 10, 2011 | 5 Comments »
And so the journey began and our paths crossed. With no intention to add another dog to our family, I was visiting the local shelter with my mom and saw this beautiful yellow lab resting his head against the cage. Commenting in my mind of what a beauty he was, I walked away with no [...]
rollercoasters
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged dogs, family, grief, labradors on April, 28, 2011 | 1 Comment »
The vet says to be prepared for a rollercoaster ride. I don’t like rollercoasters of any kind, especially when it is the life of my best friend, who happens to be a Labrador with a way too zealous appetite. After a weekend in the emergency vet clinic for a scuttle with a really mean cattle dog [...]
