A positive side to having weeks of bed rest (three herniated discs and an annular tear) is that I have a tremendous amount of time to read. In just this past week I have explored spirituality, fiction, non-fiction, and a plethora of magazines. Today I cracked open a book loaned to me about autism. Typically [...]
Posts Tagged ‘loss’
a read
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged autism, autism reads, disability, family, grief, loss, love, special needs on May, 12, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
Remembering
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged animal, companion, death of dog, death of pet, dogs, grief, loss, love, sadness on May, 9, 2012 | 1 Comment »
Words cannot explain to a non-dog person what happens to a dog-mommy’s heart when that sweet face of fur sighs into their last breath. The emptiness that fills the heart. The loneliness that comes. The days that follow when a dog dies can also be difficult to explain. The heart aches at the sight of [...]
The process begins (again)
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged back injury, emotion, grief, injury, loss, pain, surrender, understanding, yoga on May, 3, 2012 | 3 Comments »
The reality of the present is settling in. In all my attempts to create something magnificent in the way of my future, my yoga business, and my family, the situation with my back is telling me otherwise. It was just last week that I was examining the events in my life and feeling completely part [...]
Interpreting fear
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged adult with disability, changes, decisions, disabilities, dreams, grief, interpreting dreams, life, loss on April, 14, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
Listen to what you know instead of what you fear. -Richard Bach The nightly dreams of my recent weeks have been consistent with my awake hours; both are filled with some sort of turmoil. In my awake state there is worry about my girl–I find myself entering into another cycle of grief as I [...]
It comes in waves
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged autism, developmental disabilities, developmental disability, grief, loss, motherhood, pain, sadness, special needs on April, 9, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
It comes and goes in waves. In all honestly there are times that I have my head buried in the sand. I can talk the needed talk and make like I have it all under control. I can appear that I am dealing with the uncertainty of the future with my girl in the healthiest [...]
Stone by stone
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged children, disappointment, Emotional pain, family, kids, loss, love, motherhood, single parenting on March, 3, 2012 | Leave a Comment »
Stone by stone. Carefully laid upon each other as if to protect from the devastating force of nature, stones have been laid. In my life the stones were protecting the forces of painful wounds, feelings of rejection, disappointment, and a lack of acceptance for my children. Stone by stone. Alone I was left to gather [...]
She lived to lead
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged death, dogs, loss on December, 3, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Together, we found ourselves. Together, we found our purpose. She woke up everyday with the intent that her purpose was to lead me along a trail. The days we made it out on the trail were days when she had purpose. Miles and miles we traveled along mountain trails. Twelve years of hiking and soul [...]
I allow
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged grief, loss, pain, sons, surrender on April, 9, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
In the midst of a major crisis in my family life I realized that this week pushed me past any other stressful event my life has seen. Divorce, custody issues, selling my home, moving, and a diagnosis had nothing on what I experienced this week. The blessing is that perhaps I had to go through [...]
In the canyon.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged hiking, life, loss, love, soul on November, 28, 2010 | Leave a Comment »
In the depths of a canyon, surrounded by the whispering pines and the stillness of the limestone my heart spoke. My soul beckoned to be heard. My soul that once felt unworthy and unable now begged for clarity. My heart ached for a loss a friend and yet, celebrated the gift and the lesson that [...]
