He entered his labyrinth with a belief that he was indestructible and righteous. He believed that he was invincible and that the world owed him everything. I watched his self-destruction, over and over, as he found himself stuck within the walls of his own limiting beliefs and behaviors. It mattered not what I thought of him, but [...]
Posts Tagged ‘sons’
Blinded
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged grief, heartache, joy, labyrinth, Mom, motherhood, pain, son, sons on October, 17, 2011 | 1 Comment »
kindergarten to high school
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged high school, motherhood, sons on August, 16, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
It wasn’t the Star Wars backpack and plastic lunchbox. It wasn’t shiny new shoes and coordinating shorts and polo shirt. And it wasn’t kindergarten. As I watched my youngest head out the door to high school, my heart was tender for the time that flew by at lightening speed and tender for the young man [...]
I allow
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged grief, loss, pain, sons, surrender on April, 9, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
In the midst of a major crisis in my family life I realized that this week pushed me past any other stressful event my life has seen. Divorce, custody issues, selling my home, moving, and a diagnosis had nothing on what I experienced this week. The blessing is that perhaps I had to go through [...]
hope
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged grief, pain, processing, sadness, sons on April, 1, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
I often use this blog space to process feelings that I experience, some are positive and some are not so positive. My focus of my blog was intended to be that of a place to process my journey having a daughter on the Autism Spectrum. Over time, it has become a place that brings comfort [...]
roles
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged aging, life, love, motherhood, sons on March, 31, 2011 | 1 Comment »
When I was visiting student today who was volunteering at a retirement center I was stopped in my tracks by what I saw. The fragileness of life. The cycles of care. The lost look on so many. I saw the tenderness in his eyes as he toured the facility with his ailing mom. I saw [...]
defining moment…#reverb10
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged love, motherhood, reverb10, sons on December, 31, 2010 | Leave a Comment »
December 29 – Defining Moment. Describe a defining moment or series of events that has affected your life this year. The term unconditional love is one that I have been toying with these last few days. It seems that it is such a cliché term. But what does it really mean? I have learned over [...]
When I look at him today I am moved by his deep caring and compassion for others. I see the emerging of a great man. I see the beginnings of a new chapter. He is aware of what he does that brings joy to others and he his passionate about what he likes and doesn’t [...]
vampires
Posted in life, tagged life, sons on August, 5, 2010 | 2 Comments »
While sitting at the dentist, my youngest asks me to look at his long and quite sharp canine teeth. He says he looks like a vampire. Soon he is called back and returned to me with newly shaved off front teeth to a perfectly equal length. I asked him why he didn’t ask the dentist [...]
In a small apartment across town there sits a young man in search of his own destiny. On this end of town, here I sit as this young man’s mother trying to make sense of what that destiny might be. I recall the memories of his life so vividly in my mind. The hopes and [...]
Mother’s Day
Posted in autism, family, Uncategorized, tagged autism, daughters, family, gratitude, life, motherhood, reflection, sons on May, 10, 2010 | Leave a Comment »
I celebrated Mothers Day yesterday with the sweetness of my kids. I marveled at the care that they infused into the weekend. Each one bringing their own unique way of showing love. My oldest brought me the wisdom and courage that only a young man who has walked through the fire this year could discover. He [...]
