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December 10 – Wisdom Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out?
Absolutely without any doubt the wisest decision I made this year was to enroll in college. Having been married age 18, three kids by age 23, and a mortgage to pay, I never went. Now that I am nearing the age of 40, it is time.
I have no plan in mind as to what I want in the end of this adventure. I know what I don’t want to do, which includes anything with mathematics of the algebra type, but I am open to discover what it is I want to do.
Since I work full-time during the day, and I work full-time during the evening as my girl’s nurse aid, and I am a mom, taking classes in a classroom is obviously not an option. I signed up for 10 credit hours—all online. English 101, Psychology 101, and Introductory Algebra. It was an eye-opening experience to realize that I am taking the same algebra material my 8th grader, but when I was in high school 20+ years ago, taking accounting and business math somehow got me a diploma.
Nights and weekends were spent writing papers, taking quizzes and learning algebra. And after the nights of work, I often would lay in bed asking why? Why am I doing this? Every ounce of my free time energy was being put into citation pages and linear equations. Learning algebra itself is a challenge, learning it online is ridiculous. English required me to really work at academic writing and the value of sources. Psych was a cake walk. hmmm….And yet I continued to question and ask why??
Why? Because I can. Because it is my time. Because I have developed a study-buddy in my 8th grader. Because I am an example. Because I believe in myself. Because people believe in me.
With the help of several amazing guides/tutors, I have one more essay to submit, one more test to take and I can say I completed, and passed my first semester of college. Algebra was ugly, but I passed. English and Psych, well they are A’s.
Robert Ingersol said that college is a place where pebbles are polished and diamonds are dimmed. I learned this semester that I get to polish the pebble that is me and relish in the success, find gratitude in the support, and allow this part of the journey to unfold.