Personal development has been a hobby of mine for the last 15 years. What has come from this hobby has been truly amazing and I am grateful for the wake up. Over the last decade and a half, I have dug deep into healthy living, meditation, yoga, spirituality, soul-searching and the gut wrenching-digging-out-the-crap-of-old-beliefs-and-stories. I can say with honesty that I have also struggled to maintain my momentum without finding myself overly critical. Self-loathing and microscopic analysis of all that I need to “work on” can be consuming for a habit-forming personality type like myself. In contrast, there has been plenty of times when I have also neatly stacked all the self-help, goddess inspiring, soul inspiring books and walked away to take a breather.
I am in the midst of another cycle where I am looking at my stuff and balancing it with the confidence and self-assurance that I am really okay. In fact, I am beyond okay. I am an empowered and magnificently flawed human that is willing to grow.
And like all growing spurts, there is usually some pain. The deep aches that wake you in the middle night. The stretching of the mind, body and soul to embark on a new way of seeing the world, and specifically myself in the world.
While I balance what needs to be examined; work patterns, where I put my energy, habits that don’t serve my greatest good, words that hurt, etc., with the understanding what I hold my faith in–and that is, ALL experiences are opportunities to grow.
This includes the sticky experiences that are challenging and the opposing joy filled experiences that are exhilarating. I believe in the deepest of my very essence that every experience is a lesson. I also hold confidence that embedded in each ‘lesson’ is the calling to fall back into your faith. Lay softy down in the knowing that all is well. I do this my consciously handing over to God what is showing up with a trusting that in the end, I will be okay. In truth, I am far better than okay and whatever is showing up in my life, is temporary and God has my back.